Thank y0u all..!:)

= Ilya, Ilhamfaez, Adeeb, Mai, Firah, Ahadi Is, Aliaa, Cher0d, S0’bah, Aya, Hadzwan, Della, Shai0, Dennis, Miera, Deqna, ... (these ppl are the earliest t0 wish me *and remind me 0f this half-happy, half-sad day, huhu*) and every0ne else yg wished me. Thanx..!

Half-happy, half-sad... it's my birthday, and it means I'm an0ther year 0lder, and yg lg sedey dah takdek 'teen' dah kat blakang :( zmn seventeen, nineteen dah abis. Urgh..! lagi sad, I've g0t chickenp0x! :'( ni lg tensi0n, dah ar nak raye, I can't eat s0 many things.. hampeh! My m0ther b0ught a birthday cake, but my fam just sang happy birthday s0ng and let me cut the cake, but then they ate it, and I wasn't all0wed t0 eat MY 0WN BIRTHDAY CAKE..! That's quite the cruelest thing in the w0rld 0kay!! S0 I let them take 0ne slice each and I put the rest 0f the cake in the fridge, muakakaka~ pdn muke! I'm gonna keep the cake until next week, 0r the week after that, 0r cut it sh0rt, n0 0ne is all0wed t0 t0uch the cake until I'm healthy en0ugh and able t0 eat my 0wn birthday cake with0ut getting gatal2 0r rash 0r ape yg patut. Kalau cake tu sp0ilt pun, takper ar. Tp mmg takdek sape bley mkn, huh..!!:P

i will survive~

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
I kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you've done me wrong
And I grew strong, I learned how to get along

And so you're back from outer space,
I just walked in to find you here with that, that look upon your face
I should have changed my fucking lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go, walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh not I, I will survive
Yeah, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give,
I will survive

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart,
I'm tryin' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feelin' sorry for myself,
I used to cry,
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you.
And so you thought you’d just drop by and you expect me to be free,
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me,

I WILL SURVIVE!!!!

life??

sometimes we just don't have the least bit of strength to face up to things in our lives, and when we can't get a grip on reality, everything seems to fall apart into pieces, and knowing that we have to come out of the ordeal without relying on anyone else always manages to get us s0 knackered to the point we begin to think incoherently, and nothing seems real anymore,, life is a matter of choice, is it really? y0u can choose to be happy or sad- can we still believe in this cliche anymore?,, and when it's y0u who's deciding on things, the consequences will all come down to y0u, and it's inevitably y0u who'll be looking back on things and muse, and sometimes regret for in the 1st place it was y0u yourself who chose it and in a way, let it happen,, it's sad though, how we wish things will always be fine when we're wide awake and realize it can only happen in dreams- sweet dreams,, emotions can wear off, but at times scars are left,, and when it seems t0 heal, some awful thing will just crop up out of nowhere and give it an even worse pain,,

another dubitable cliche-it's better to have loved and lost than not to love at all,, does it really go that way? when y0u're the one who keeps crying your heart out; bearing in mind that y0u can get over it and have things sorted out and start all over again and throw yourself into some other misery (again) and in the end, do the same thing- repeat the same cycle for the rest of your life- feigning that the whole rubbish is s0-called experience and that they're inevitable and instead neccessary to broaden your horizon and to av0id y0u from doing exactly the same mistake again; whereas it's all crap! if only it's possible to turn back time....