2 days with0ut class resulted in 0ur s0aking up the weekend m00d. a m00d which caused an adverse effect 0n us that is- malas giler nak gi class this last day 0f the week. huhu. but i still went t0 the m0rning classes. yatie skipped b0th. and t0day is "hari penipuan sedunia" hahaha. s0me0ne g0t duped t0day! ;) n0t 0nce, but several times. what? n0 n0, it wasn't me. ehehhehe. i was 0ne 0f th0se wh0 made that s0me0ne jump in fright because 0f a simple lie. *huahhahahh* it's yatie!!! ;) i really d0n't get what's wr0ng with her t0day, but she's simply being inn0cent and believed every single thing pe0ple t0ld her, such as her 0pti0n presentati0n was cancelled by their lecturer hence she l0st 20 marks. i lied t0 her that there was a heat exchanger quiz f0r 0ur equipment design class and she missed it. and a few m0re. and she was buying everything! *kesian betul.. cacat!* ;p

i skipped my 0pti0n class this aftern00n, and was talked int0 g0ing 0ut with yatie. when she asked me if i felt like g0ing 0ut 0r n0t, i sensed danger there. hahahaha. i didn't really feel like g0ing 0ut, but it's been quite b0ring these days. i mean.. we spent 2 days d0ing n0thing. we didn't even g0 0ut 0r d0 s0mething nice. i suggested m0vie, but i kn0w yatie's n0t much 0f a m0vie-n-p0pc0rn pers0n. s0 my attempt t0 av0id myself fr0m being dragged int0 an0ther lethal sh0pping trip was in vain. haha. but anyh0w. we did g0 0ut, t0 The Mines *jer pun :p* but that wasn't bef0re we did a few stupid things first. *hehehehe* ;p takperlah.. segan nak crite. *muakakaka* s0 we were 0ff at 5 pm.

i was in a neutral m00d; n0t t00 happy, n0t t00 umm.. unhappy. eheh. but when we g0t there, and started wind0w-sh0pping, i gradually fell int0 silence, barely uttered a w0rd, and smiled slightly when yatie asked me what was wr0ng. i felt guilty; i kn0w s0me0ne wh0's s0000 quiet and seems s000 distant and l0st is hardly the m0st s0ught-after c0mpani0n f0r g0ing 0ut. s0 i really tried t0 cheer up and dutifully f0ll0wed her ar0und, trying t0 think 0f s0mething witty t0 say ab0ut the rings she picked up 0r the sh0es she tried 0n. but it still felt wr0ng, my heart was truly n0t in it. 0nly when yatie treated me t0 br0wnies+alm0nds+ch0c fudge ice cream did i perk up. and after that, tiramisu+alm0nds :) i really binged 0n ice cream t0day. *kalah ice cream day huhu* well.. i really l0ve alm0nds, 0f all nuts. back in c0llege, i was feeling drained 0ut, i c0llapsed int0 her bed and fell asleep. and yatie was nagging at me; said i had t0 build up my exclusive-f0r-sh0pping stamina and all. uh huh :p *yerla tu*

saturday's c0ming! :) :) :)

zzzZZzZZzzZzzzzZzzz

huhu. w0ke up late this m0rn-9am, (the first time in 2 weeks). i w0ke up t0 find myself in yatie's bed. i didn't realize it; i must've fallen asleep with0ut actually wanting t0 last night. Ana was getting dressed; had already taken a sh0wer. me and yatie lazed ar0und despite 0ur plan t0 g0 t0 the faculty at 9am. i t0ld her t0 g0 take a sh0wer first and i'd f0ll0w, and she was like.. u first. blabla. (actually dua2 pun pemalas ;p) s0 finally, we went t0 the fac at 11.30am! haha.

spent the wh0le aftern00n with yatie playing games, reading mags, listening t0 the radi0, guessing lyrics and talking. i still l0ve h0lidays and days-0ff even if there's n0thing nice t0 d0, even if i just waste my time d0ing stupid things :) i l0ve h0lidays!! *wh0 d0esn't?* duh! ;p

still haven't d0ne the assignment. i've re-read the questi0ns, but am t00 sleepy (plus lazy) t0 really start d0ing it :)

check this 0ut- "blue skies" by irving berlin. my s0ng :)

I was blue, just as blue as I could be

Ev'ry day was a cloudy day for me

Then good luck came a-knocking at my door

Skies were gray but they're not gray anymore

Blue skies

Smiling at me

Nothing but blue skies

Do I see

Bluebirds

Singing a song

Nothing but bluebirds

All day long

Never saw the sun shining so bright

Never saw things going so right

Noticing the days hurrying by

When you're in love, my how they fly

Blue days

All of them gone

Nothing but blue skies

From now on

[2]

I should care if the wind blows east or west

I should fret if the worst looks like the best

I should mind if they say it can't be true

I should smile,

that's exactly what I do :) :) :)

.BUKAN CINTA BIASA~.

i went t0 see a theater t0nite, at... *n0w this is a bit tricky ;p* let me try.. PKSSSHAAS- Pusat Kebudayaan dan Seni Sultan Salahuddin ....s0mething2.... Shah. haha. i'm n0t sure if i g0t it right. anyh0w. "Bukan Cinta Biasa". interesting title huh? that's what made me g0 in the 1st place. and this is a pers0nal 0pini0n; my pers0nal 0pini0n. and 0thers may say anything they want anyway :p t0 me, it's great! but i really d0nt kn0w. i d0nt kn0w much ab0ut theaters, let al0ne t0 evaluate the quality, etc. s0 wh0 am i t0 give c0mments 0r anything right? but i enj0yed it :) it was awes0me. there were b0ring bits (but 0f c0urse :p) in the beginning, but it was a great sh0w just the same. 0ne thing really made me sit in awed silence *huhu*; the lead actress cried f0r the m0st part! i mean, she really cried!! with tears streaming d0wn her face and all. i was like.. "w0w!" h0w'd she d0 that? h0w? an0ther thing; the 0riginality 0f the idea. the st0ry began with a p0litical upheaval in a place called planet spidar, a planet 0f spider-human; their dance-like m0vement was amazing, i mean.. they m0ved like that all the time, didnt they feel tired 0r s0mething? the stage setting was c00l t00. there's this gigantic hand-made spider web which c0vered alm0st the wh0le stage; it l00ked real! umm.. where was i? the st0ry. yes. umm.. there was the crisis; we kn0w they have this system where there's the Queen wh0 reigns their planet blahblah, and the male serve the female 0r s0mething like that right? s0, the crisis was triggered by the male p0pulati0n; they were sick 0f serving the female. they wanted equality. umm.. wait.. c0me t0 think 0f it.. isn't it the bees that have the queen and all that? d0 spiders have 0ne t00? umm.. n0w i really am n0t sure. but the planet's name was spidar, s0 that must be spider in english right? err.. let's just assume that they're cr0ss-breed 0f spider, bee and.. umm.. human :p s0.. the princess then fled t0 bumi mars; 0ur planet earth la. she met this 0ne guy, and they fell f0r each 0ther blahblah. then, the male spider-bee-human f0und her, a war between the spider-bee-human species against human t00k place. finally, the princess had t0 return t0 her planet, their queen died; killed by the male spider-bee-human, s0 she had t0 take 0ver the reign. s0 the brief fling between her and the guy ceased there. the end. *lebih kurang la ;p* besh besh :)

called denn at 6pm. haven't talked t0 her in a week. and didn't reply her msgs t00. *s0rry* and i kn0w she didn't believe me when i said i didn't have any credits left :) huhu. s0rry ab0ut that t00. 0wh and s0rry i kept saying "what? what?" *sbb the line sux huhu* and didn't understand what she was saying; i was busy trying t0 make 0ut what she said. will talk t0 y0u later.

went t0 a friend's r00m f0r a makan2 sessi0n, and after that, they were all d0ing the statistics hw while Maizatul and me played cards. hehe. Firah was the judge (la k0n0n ;p) *like we needed 0ne :p* i really c0uldn't f0cus; Wanis was bugging me! :p she didn't want t0 play; she was supp0sed t0 be discussing her gr0up presentati0n with the rest 0f her gr0up members, but she didn't even j0in them and she did her best t0 distract me. she peered at my cards, and gave away what i had. i l0st t0 Mai. cis! :p but then, it g0t much better. i w0n three games in a r0w, i wanted t0 quit and declare myslef as the winner f0r the night, but Mai insisted 0n playing an0ther 3 games; said if i w0n, she'd declare me as champi0n. s0 i played. and I AM champi0n 0f the night! ;) hihi. *dahla tu, mls nak gl0at dah ;p* went t0 yatie's r00m and ate kuey te0w kung fu. b0rak2. tid0.

thai-seaf00d pizza f0r dinner!~ ;) hihi. thanx t0 encik KING K0NG! ;D and encik gajah juge, kerana telah meneman saye bermain. hehe. we played cards until azan maghrib! huhu. i'm seri0usly h00ked 0n it. i w0n..!! \(^_^)/ that's the best part. and this is the n0t-s0-g00d part, heh; i w0n.. 0NCE :p but it's c00l all the same. and with them guys, i enj0yed playing, c0z with the girls, they pressured me! huhu. kutuk... tak tahan.. ;p melemah-kan semangat kesukanan 0rg jer. hihi. well.. it's s0-called psych0l0gy (strategy, even). and i c0uld gl0at all i want with the guys; they let me! hahaha. *yerla, kasi can ar k0n0n.. dah asyik main black jack jer, kalah ar r0yal, terime lah kenyataan rakan2ku. hihi ;p* i w0n't be playing black jack anyway. i pr0mised myself.

i called yati at 5 pm, and every0ne sh0uted int0 the ph0ne s0mething i c0uldn't really make 0ut, but didn't have t0 make it 0ut t0 kn0w exactly what it was :p heh. like i was jeal0us. i said t0 a friend, "ada apa dengan camer0n?" and she asked me back, (here's a g00d 0ne ;p) "ada apa dengan k0lej?" haha. it's true. i never th0ught 0f that. never c0mpared c0llege with camer0n. i think she was trying t0 say 'it's n0t all that c00l *camer0n* but it's better than n0thing *c0llege*'. heh. and i c0uldn't find s0mething t0 c0unter that. stunned, even. hahaha. anyways. i ph0ned her just t0 ask what time they'd be back. i wanted t0 g0 t0 her r00m and tidy up a little :p d0n't get it wr0ng, i'm n0t being nice f0r n0thing. i just felt 0bliged t0 d0 it c0z yesterday, 0nly me and Ana left, umm.. the place was a bit messy. n0thing, really. just the juice cart0n, etc. and f0ll0wing her rec0rd, i really c0uldn't rely 0n Ana t0 make the place clean again. hahaha. n0 0ffense, Ana. but she admitted it herself; if the ph0t0 0f her place was exp0sed f0r pe0ple t0 guess, they'd say it's a guy's place. huhu. n0w use y0ur imaginati0n :p n0 need t0 g0 int0 details. plus, she'd be at the Green Card thingy all day after all. anyways. here's the sh0cking thing. i went 0ver after playing cards, and n0 0ne was there, and the r00m was acceptably clean and tidy! hahaha. i just made the bed and put a few things in place. and i was smiling actually, while d0ing it. Ana c0uld be a very 0rganized pers0n if she put her mind t0 it. hehe. well.. anything is p0ssible f0r every0ne if we put 0ur mind t0 it, right? :)

i've g0t w0rk t0 d0. i've t0 read all th0se research papers firah gave me. will have t0 write a rep0rt 0n it. but my head is p0unding. i think it must be my s0000-0rganized-but-lacking-in-the-sleep-department life lately. i think i'll just have a quick l00k at the papers, and sleep early t0nite. weekend is 0ver :)

eyyy... l00k! it's raining 0utside! :)

"Outside it's now raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much
Miss you much..."

i never realized bef0re, h0w painfully hard it is; trying t0 be s0meb0dy we're n0t. trying t0 be s0meb0dy I AM N0T. pretending. d0 s0mething i'm n0t used t0, things d0n't feel right, fight the urge t0 make it right, and hear the little v0ice inside 0f me cry in pr0test. there isn't anything else. it's sad.

time f0r a new l00k! :D this is my 1st fully self-made skin. i'm pr0ud 0f it. i w0uld've added really but 0n sec0nd th0ught, i didnt. hehhs. c0z it's very simple, n0t all that fantastic 0r great. (silly me, i sh0uldn't even have th0ught 0f putting the w0rd fantastic, it's really, abs0lutely t00 far fr0m that! :p) anyway. i've been busy with tests and assignments all week l0ng, i didn't really have time t0 w0rk 0n this skin, but in between tasks, i managed t0 finish it. it t00k me umm... *kire2* 16 h0urs. i liked the 0ld skin better, but i g0t a g00d t00 many c0mments 0n its readability, etc s0 i decided t0 change it. i h0pe this d0esn't l00k t00 blue. hihi. well, there's a l0t 0f white. umm.. bef0re it slips 0ff my mind, i g0tta pay a tribute t0 <<yatie>>, my ever-there-f0r-me-t0-bully friend *peace yatie!;p* wh0's sn0ring beside me right this m0ment. thanks A L0T f0r helping me 0ut; y0ur c0mments, ideas (35% silly, 35% g00d, 111% stupid j0kes :p) and patience are immensely appreciated. g00d thing, really, that y0u t00, l0ve blue. quite a team huh?:p and yes, u've said it ab0ut a zilli0n times already; d0nt w0rry, see, i've put y0ur name here. and yes, i hereby declare that u did help me with this :p (n0w d0 i get the strawberry-flav0red tea 0r n0t?)

speaking 0f which, i sh0uld wake her up actually. she's n0t d0ne packing her stuff yet. in truth, she c0uld've d0ne it if i wasn't in her way; criticizing every single item she c0nsidered taking with her. well, at times she can be decisive, and there are times i can be, at which she can't. in the end, her things reduced t0 4 t-shirts and 2 sh0es, and my baby-blue bag; all thanks t0 my c0mments and/0r influence. hihi. i was editing my bl0g skin while she alternated packing with leafing thr0ugh mags and g00fing ar0und (n0t t0 menti0n the cl0wn-like pink plus purple eye shad0w ;p) and helping me with my bl0g. there, we helped each 0ther. simbi0ns, aren't we? she d0zed 0ff at 4.45am.

they'll be 0ff t0 camer0n highland this m0rning. i'll be all al0ne this weekend. i'm n0t g0ing despite their persuading me, said it'll be t00 b0ring. there's n0thing new ab0ut camer0n, is there? but i'd t0tally f0rg0tten what a weekend al0ne is like. it's different if it was by ch0ice. i'm in n0 m00d t0 be al0ne 0r t0 have a quiet weekend. i d0n't mind if it means an0ther sh0pping trip with yatie :p anything, really. buzz 0f life. i need that. plus, i've n0thing t0 d0. and i really mean NOTHING; n0 unfinished tut0rials, hw, assignments, 0r rep0rts. my statistics hw was d0ne by the end 0f the day i g0t the questi0ns. heat exchanger hw and the extra tut0rial questi0ns; i've finished them all yesterday. i'll be 0n a real l00se end this weekend. nvm. i'll find s0mething t0 d0.

0kay. i heard azan. a sleepless night. and a b0ring day is ahead 0f me. right. this is my res0luti0n f0r t0day. i musn't be b0red. i mustn't be b0red!

('_') <---- determined expressi0n

*sigh* b0red already.

"yatie bgnlaaaa.. *kacau kacau*.." ;p

m0rning every0ne! :)

.ta ya and yatie.

i l0ve this pic 0f 0urs. lying 0n the green, green grass. staring up at the blue, blue sky (and the c0tt0n-candy cl0uds). carefree! :) *plus squinting at the sun; it was s0 h0t! ;p*

i w0ke up early this m0rn despite the fact that i slept 0nly 3 hrs last nite. i'd wanted t0 d0 0ne thing i havent d0ne f0r s000 l0ng; j0gging. hehe. used t0 j0g early in the m0rn bef0re, esp 0n weekends. but i didnt j0g this m0rning. did the laundry, studied f0r my test this friday. *see, see ;) * g0t 2 classes, 9-11am. ehehh. at the end 0f the stat class, the lecturer called 0ut my name, said she wanted t0 see me after class. i was like, "0-0kay." s0 i said t0 yatie "wish me luck!" huhu. i didnt kn0w what was that f0r. n0t that the lecturer was g0ing t0 give me a series 0f rapid-fire questi0ns and i had t0 answer them all very quickly and she'd give me 50 marks as a b0nus :p anyway. s0 i went t0 see her after class.

0kay, it's been s000 l0ng since the last time a teacher asked t0 see me. s0, naturally, i put 0n a stern face. huhu. and prepared t0 give her that defiant, s0-i'm-a-bad-kid-s0-what? l00k which i haven't practised since i left sch00l. hihi. i kinda f0rg0t that i really had t0 l00k very defensive and n0nchalant at the same time. but instead 0f the evil l00k teachers always seem t0 have; which i was expecting, my lecturer smiled very sweetly, and ushered me int0 her r00m. i l00ked at her hesitantly; n0nplussed. she asked me t0 sit d0wn and instead 0f f0lding my arms and declining her 0ffer, i pulled the chair and sat t0 face her. and... i smiled!!;) th0ugh, 0f c0urse, it was an awkward smile, still n0t letting d0wn my guard. then, she started asking me all s0rts 0f questi0ns, regarding my recent results. like i always did, i t0ld her h0nestly, i didnt g0 t0 M0ST 0f the lectures and tut0rial classes, and didnt d0 my hw, didnt even study f0r the test. she asked me if i had any pr0blems; i t0ld her n0! at least, n0ne that i was g0ing t0 discuss with her la kan, despite her c0axing me very gently. she even hinted that i sh0uld feel free t0 tell her anything at all, esp pers0nal pr0blems. i laughed p0litely (0r at least, i h0ped it was p0lite hihi) and sh00k my head vig0r0usly. "n0, n0thing. i've n0 pr0blems at all. it's just my attitudes. i kn0w i've t0 d0 s0mething abt it, and i will, but apart fr0m that, there's n0thing t0 discuss abt." she c0ntinued saying that she was c0ncerned and all, u kn0w, the c0rny stuff teachers always give t0 their pr0blematic students (n0t that i was 0ne, n0 :p). then, she asked abt my previ0us semesters' results, my cgpa. i t0ld her. and she l00ked c0nfused esp when i said i did get dean's lists, and i never g0t any Cs. 0kay, actually that was a bit 0f a lie, i did get C+ 0nce f0r my Heat Transfer and Engineering Ec0n0my, but every0ne kn0ws Ec0n sucks right? :p anyways. s0, she t0ld me that i've g0t g00d results, and that basically she didnt think i sh0uld have any pr0blems with statistics, and IF i had any pr0blems, i sh0uld w0rk extra hard, s0 that i w0uldnt sp0il my 0verall results just because 0f this 0ne c0urse. i n0dded abt a hundred times, and thanked her an0ther hundred times, and left.

haha. mcm zaman sek0lah plak :) this aftern00n, i studied f0r my 0pti0n test. this evening, i went lepak-ing with maizatul and anna, and played cards until 10.30pm. then, i went lepak-ing at yatie's r00m. and i'm g0nna sleep straightaway after this. statistics? what ab0ut statistics? :)

.jumble 0f th0ughts.

i'm grumpy t0day. c0uldnt sleep last nite; even the tiniest bit 0f s0und managed t0 disturb my fitful sleep. i lay in bed, restless. i ended up sms-ing with a friend; discussing s0ngs, etc, n he t0ld me he wanted t0 be in penang s0 that he'd be cl0se t0 her grandm0ther t0 take care 0f her. he'd l0st his grandfather 0nly last yr (if i'm n0t mistaken) and his grandma isnt really well and all.. i finally drifted t0 sleep at 5 am. i w0ke up n saw everything in grey. the cl0uds. the sky. a grey m0rning. gl00my. n there was a msg 0n my hp. my friend was 0n his way t0 penang, his dear grandma has just passed away early this m0rn. everyb0dy always l0ses everyb0dy they l0ve. it was 0nly last night. 0nly last night. h0w c0uld things change 0vernight? changes. big 0nes. fear. it c0uld've happened t0 me. it c0uld've been me 0n my way h0me, n0t him. me. gl00my gl00my day. it's 3:25 pm, and it's been grey all day. i'm al0ne. i have t0 study f0r my test t0m0rr0w m0rning. test. i've g0t the test t0 think ab0ut. but that's n0t the 0nly thing 0n my mind. n0, it's n0t. i d0 a l0t 0f extra thinking t0day. despite the fact that i have t0 study. life's m0re than just a test. a test is n0t all there is t0 life. n0t all there is t0 MY life. there are m0re crucial things. but i still have t0 study . there's still the test. life is real. LIFE IS REAL. that's a slap acr0ss the face! reality. treat everyday as if it was y0ur last day, d0 everything y0u need t0 d0. what if it was y0ur last day? and y0u didnt d0 what y0u needed t0 d0. y0u'd be leaving regrets behind. regret. life's full 0f regrets. w0rthless life. meaningless life. "..i'm ashamed 0f my life because it's empty.." what if it was y0ur l0ved 0nes' last day? y0ur friend's? it c0uld've happened. things happen all the time. they are real. have t0 study. study. l0ve them while they're still ar0und. cherish them while y0u still have the time. "..i d0nt' kn0w h0w t0 let any0ne else in.." we never kn0w. we'll never kn0w. tragedy. sad. wasting time.

innalillah.. al-fatihah...

"trying t0 f0rget s0me0ne y0u've kn0wn l0ng, 0r s0me0ne y0u've kn0wn all y0ur life is like trying t0 remember s0me0ne y0u never knew. y0u kn0w, y0u can't f0rgive y0urself; y0u need the guilt. it's what keeps y0u g0ing..."
he said this t0 me last nite. i've figured 0ut half the meaning. haven't quite underst00d the wh0le thing. need t0 think. have t0 study. life g0es 0n...

"... 0n that m0rning.. when this life is 0ver.. i kn0w.. i'll see y0ur face.."

.gl00my.

THERE ISN'T ANYTHING ELSE..

n0b0dy's safe, and n0b0dy's free. there's 0nly s0mewhere between safe and free, and what pe0ple are. the 0nly thing that we can ever be is just human, and that ends up breaking 0ur hearts. we all try s0 hard t0 be str0ng, 0r free, 0r safe, 0r whatever it is we think we need m0st.. and in the end all we can ever be is just US. and it's en0ugh because it has t0 be. THERE ISN'T ANYTHING ELSE. and this is what we d0. we try t0 give what little we have t0 s0meb0dy wh0 hasn't g0t it, and maybe they try t0 give us back what they have that we haven't g0t. that's what l0ve is. and what we l0ve, we l0ve all the harder. because s0meday it'll be g0ne. it means that everyb0dy always l0ses everyb0dy/thing they l0ve, but they need t0 l0ve them anyway, because THERE ISN'T ANYTHING ELSE...

:: the end ::

thanx t0 adeeb, this s0ng (1) has been stuck in my head lately. and thanx t0 adek2 kesygn-ku ;p i've been humming this s0ng (2) n0n-st0p since these last few days.

(1) TEMAN TAPI MESRA- RATU (way c00l!:p)
(2) SEMUA TENTANG KITA- PETER PAN :)

Teman Tp Mesra- best! hihi. 1st time dgr cam biase jer. 2nd time dgr, i fell alm0st instantly in 'like' with the s0ng. luckily, my little br0s like the s0ng t00, which is a HUGE relief t0 me. haha. we were lepak-ing in my r00m when the s0ng p0pped up, and they said "haa lagu ni c00l gak.." and turned up the v0lume. pheww... lega ;) and n0w i even have the mp3 in my hp (they transfered it with0ut my asking, tq ler yek:p) i just remembered, they liked Cinta B0neka t00. huhu. aii same citarase erk k0rg ni :p huhu. saye terpengaruh! it may seem weird, but it actually matters quite a l0t t0 me whether my little br0s like the s0ngs i like 0r n0t. well. it's n0thing, really. it's n0t like i had t0 have their appr0val bef0re liking a s0ng. it's a matter 0f umm.. h0w d0 i put this.. pride? s0unds ab0ut right. eheh. nah, n0t exactly pride. the m0st l0gical explanati0n is.. umm.. well. haha. i w0n't b0ther explaining. it's simply because i d0nt want them t0 tease me!!! :p hihi. like that time when i had CERITA ASMARA (thanx t0 adeeb juge!!:p) in my playlist, they had quite a time making fun 0f me. cess! bengang betul. i remember saying this ab0ut a zilli0n times t0 them "weyy member 0rg kasik ar, 'bkn dgr pun'!" defensively, plus dismissively. huhu. and they gave me that 'yeah-right!' l00k. tensen! 'BKN DENGAR PUN...' he he he *grins* if 0nly they knew i remembered the lyrics by heart! (then, 0kay, T H E N!! plus i kind 0f 'had' t0). hahaha. i guess it d0esnt really fit their mental images 0f me. huhu. that's it.

aku punya teman

teman sepermainan

kemana ada dia selalu ada aku
dia amat manis juga baik hati

dia selalu ada waktu untuk membantuku
namun aku bingung

ketika dia bilang cinta

dan dia juga katakan tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

reff: cukuplah saja berteman denganku

janganlah kau meminta lebih

ku tak mungkin mencintaimu

kita berteman saja

teman tapi mesra
aku memang suka pada dirimu

namun aku ada yg punya

lebih baik kita berteman

kita berteman saja

teman tapi mesra

Semua Tentang Kita- i l0ve the music :) check 0ut the vide0 clip! hehe. *aiyark sejak bile aku ske lagu2 sl0w ni.. this d0esnt fit MY mental image 0f me huhu* 0h yek, the music resembles this 0ther s0ng in Mete0r Garden, but just a tiny bit.

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0h yeah, lame x dgr my fav s0ng 3 yrs lps; Penny Dai's "ni ya0 de ai". ske giler! :) and kalau ske lagu ni tp x ske lagu "qing fei de yi"- harlem yu mcm pelik ar kan. heh. klaka, i've liked these s0ngs l0ng bef0re they made the malay versi0n 0f 'qing fei de yi' (yes, saiful 0r s0mething). and sampai skang i d0nt kn0w the lyrics in malay, s0 kalau dgr yg saiful nyanyi tu i'd sing al0ng tp in mandarin. huhu. plus lagi best pun, 0ri nyer :p

i talked t0 yatie this aftern00n. she went sh0pping (yet again??!!) and b0ught an0ther pair 0f high-heels!! can y0u believe that girl?!! and c0uldnt wait t0 sh0w it 0ff t0 me. heh. and when i teased her, she said the 0nes she b0ught 0n the 12-hr sh0pping trip (which nearly paralyzed the l0wer half 0f my b0dy :p) were f0r her 'HARI BER-TUNANG'(!!) why, i certainly can't wait t0 see u get engaged yatie!:p *y0u c0uld've invented a m0re believable excuse, n0t that i cared :p*

talked t0 my 0ld friends; 0ja, Iman, Leen. Tried t0 call amy but she was 0ut. leen c0uldnt rec0gnize my v0ice, said my v0ice s0unded very different; macam budak2(??!!) huhu. h0w very pleasant :p

denn called but i 'didnt hear' the ph0ne ring. hihi. i was reading 'needful things' when adeeb called. hihihi. klaka ler. the first thing he asked... ;D i th0ught it was strange. thing is, i'd t0tally f0rg0tten the last time we talked 2 days ag0 i... well.. erm.. kind 0f.. umm.. missed.. erm.. let's say i was supp0sed t0 d0 s0mething but, umm.. haha. better late than never huh? ;p i tried t0 call denn twice but c0uldnt get thr0ugh. finally she called me. and we talked abt, umm.. things.(when was the last time we talked abt these things? um.. last yr?) it was g00d. she's 0ne 0f th0se wh0 have been *and never st0pped* trying t0 change my opini0n 0n the wh0le L thing. hehe. and i'm being ever s0 stubb0rn *i kn0w denn, i'm s0rry* but she d0esn't give up.

we argued 0ver the same things; 'l0ve, hurt, independent, SELF-DENIAL(?!) etc' and denn, y0u sh0uld listen t0 y0urself, y0u s0unded like a debater in piala perdana menteri time sk0la2 dulu hakhak :D kelaka. but she was silenced f0r a bit when i struck her with "i learned** it the hard way; the hardest way, denn. 0ther ppl can say anything but they d0nt feel what i feel, they d0nt g0 thr0ugh what i did. ever since 'then' i'd st0pped believing in it.. y0u kn0w" and when she started talking again, she c0nceded. she said i was right. i kn0w y0u understand it; y0u, 0f m0st ppl, sh0uld d0. that's why y0u agreed. because y0u kn0w. thanx! i kn0w y0u (and 0ther ppl) mean well, i appreciate it, but i'm still in grief. i'm n0t dwelling 0n the past; it's t0tally different. i've m0ved 0n, i've g0tten 0ver it, but i've als0 changed because 0f it. pe0ple d0; when a tragedy happens. they can't help it. they say time heals. i d0nt believe in that, t00.
** learn wut? heh. THE EN0RM0US C0ST 0F L0VING :p

heh. cut it 0ut! all these stupid t0uchy-feely things. yuckssss :p

umm.. adeeb called, and denn did t00. where's muttpea? muttpea! muttpea! y0u're still alive, aren't u? :p i haven't heard fr0m him in ages. tried t0 call and sms him last week and weirdly en0ugh, all my smses weren't delivered. kata ar k0 tuka n0 tak beritahu aku! mmg nak kena smackd0wn! :p nway muttpea, y0u're n0t that imp0rtant in my life. i just menti0ned y0u here 0ut 0f ... umm.. 0ut 0f.. *quick quick, a w0rd pls* b0red0m. yes. that must be it :p *but i still w0n't let y0u dr0wn larr if 0ur sampan is g0ing t0 sink and i can 0nly ch00se 0ne pers0n t0 be in the safe b0at with me; that is, if and 0nly if (aww.. statistics?! i hate stat!) the 0ther pers0n wasn't KEANU REEVES la kan hakhak peace!!\(^_^)/*

call me laaaaaaaaa!!! :p :p :p

wait a sec.. gawd.. IF i really were t0 c0me acr0ss such a situati0n kan, pls ar pls pls pls :( let the safe b0at be a wee bit bigger s0 that i c0uld ch00se 2 pe0ple, pls.. that'd be g00d en0ugh. i mean, n0.. 3! umm.. 0kay2. h0nestly. it's a t0ugh decisi0n, isn't it? i mean.. let's be seri0us. t0 ch00se the pers0n t0 be in the b0at with u, it's like t0 decide wh0se life y0u're g0ing t0 terminate, wh0a.. a matter 0f life and death. g0d, pls send me a MUCH bigger b0at; a yacht, if p0ssible, and let me ch00se at least 18 ppl! hihi. i d0nt want any0ne t0 h0ld grudge against me, i w0uldnt be able t0 live peacefully nanti.. huhu. i'm making perfect sense here kan kan? ;p