i never realized bef0re, h0w painfully hard it is; trying t0 be s0meb0dy we're n0t. trying t0 be s0meb0dy I AM N0T. pretending. d0 s0mething i'm n0t used t0, things d0n't feel right, fight the urge t0 make it right, and hear the little v0ice inside 0f me cry in pr0test. there isn't anything else. it's sad.