denn called but i 'didnt hear' the ph0ne ring. hihi. i was reading 'needful things' when adeeb called. hihihi. klaka ler. the first thing he asked... ;D i th0ught it was strange. thing is, i'd t0tally f0rg0tten the last time we talked 2 days ag0 i... well.. erm.. kind 0f.. umm.. missed.. erm.. let's say i was supp0sed t0 d0 s0mething but, umm.. haha. better late than never huh? ;p i tried t0 call denn twice but c0uldnt get thr0ugh. finally she called me. and we talked abt, umm.. things.(when was the last time we talked abt these things? um.. last yr?) it was g00d. she's 0ne 0f th0se wh0 have been *and never st0pped* trying t0 change my opini0n 0n the wh0le L thing. hehe. and i'm being ever s0 stubb0rn *i kn0w denn, i'm s0rry* but she d0esn't give up.

we argued 0ver the same things; 'l0ve, hurt, independent, SELF-DENIAL(?!) etc' and denn, y0u sh0uld listen t0 y0urself, y0u s0unded like a debater in piala perdana menteri time sk0la2 dulu hakhak :D kelaka. but she was silenced f0r a bit when i struck her with "i learned** it the hard way; the hardest way, denn. 0ther ppl can say anything but they d0nt feel what i feel, they d0nt g0 thr0ugh what i did. ever since 'then' i'd st0pped believing in it.. y0u kn0w" and when she started talking again, she c0nceded. she said i was right. i kn0w y0u understand it; y0u, 0f m0st ppl, sh0uld d0. that's why y0u agreed. because y0u kn0w. thanx! i kn0w y0u (and 0ther ppl) mean well, i appreciate it, but i'm still in grief. i'm n0t dwelling 0n the past; it's t0tally different. i've m0ved 0n, i've g0tten 0ver it, but i've als0 changed because 0f it. pe0ple d0; when a tragedy happens. they can't help it. they say time heals. i d0nt believe in that, t00.
** learn wut? heh. THE EN0RM0US C0ST 0F L0VING :p

heh. cut it 0ut! all these stupid t0uchy-feely things. yuckssss :p

umm.. adeeb called, and denn did t00. where's muttpea? muttpea! muttpea! y0u're still alive, aren't u? :p i haven't heard fr0m him in ages. tried t0 call and sms him last week and weirdly en0ugh, all my smses weren't delivered. kata ar k0 tuka n0 tak beritahu aku! mmg nak kena smackd0wn! :p nway muttpea, y0u're n0t that imp0rtant in my life. i just menti0ned y0u here 0ut 0f ... umm.. 0ut 0f.. *quick quick, a w0rd pls* b0red0m. yes. that must be it :p *but i still w0n't let y0u dr0wn larr if 0ur sampan is g0ing t0 sink and i can 0nly ch00se 0ne pers0n t0 be in the safe b0at with me; that is, if and 0nly if (aww.. statistics?! i hate stat!) the 0ther pers0n wasn't KEANU REEVES la kan hakhak peace!!\(^_^)/*

call me laaaaaaaaa!!! :p :p :p

wait a sec.. gawd.. IF i really were t0 c0me acr0ss such a situati0n kan, pls ar pls pls pls :( let the safe b0at be a wee bit bigger s0 that i c0uld ch00se 2 pe0ple, pls.. that'd be g00d en0ugh. i mean, n0.. 3! umm.. 0kay2. h0nestly. it's a t0ugh decisi0n, isn't it? i mean.. let's be seri0us. t0 ch00se the pers0n t0 be in the b0at with u, it's like t0 decide wh0se life y0u're g0ing t0 terminate, wh0a.. a matter 0f life and death. g0d, pls send me a MUCH bigger b0at; a yacht, if p0ssible, and let me ch00se at least 18 ppl! hihi. i d0nt want any0ne t0 h0ld grudge against me, i w0uldnt be able t0 live peacefully nanti.. huhu. i'm making perfect sense here kan kan? ;p