"what y0u l0ve, y0u must l0ve all the harder, c0z s0meday it'll be g0ne.." - Jack Sawyer, "Black H0use" by Stephen King & Peter Straub :)

but if y0u knew it'd be g0ne, why b0ther l0vin it in the first place? isn't it a waste 0f time? y0u're g0nna l0se it eventually; n0 matter wut, s0 wut's the p0int? isn't it better t0 detach y0urself bef0re it's taken away fr0m y0u? bef0re y0u get hurt? isn't it g00d t0 pr0tect y0urself?

"the thing is, we l0ve it anyway, because there's n0thing else we can d0." - N0ra McKenzie, "N0ra, N0ra" by Anne Rivers Sidd0n

it's funny h0w i came acr0ss a questi0n in a b00k and kept p0ndering it 0ver, and finally figured 0ut the answer in s0me 0ther b00k, after s0me time.

it's n0t right.

but it's n0t wr0ng, either.

:)

merdekaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! \(^_^)/ da abes finals yayaayyy!!!!

wut happened t0 this thing? n0 updates f0r 0ver a m0nth. l00king m0re b0ring than ever. haihhhh.. it's 0kay. my semester break is c0ming!!!!! yaayy! can't wait! *sengih lebar2* :D

1st celebrati0n : bbq t0nite with my frens, th0se im n0t g0nna see in a m0nth *n0t that i'm g0nna miss any 0f u guys hahaha*<--- pengakuan ikhlas ;) *but usually i'd end up calling up s0me 0f them di kala keb0sanan sewaktu cuti, heh esp firah n yatie anak kambing* :p betul, aku tak tipu. tak rindu k0rg pun, esp siput sedut nehh.. hari2 tgk muke, eh name k0 kat YM, cuti nih jgn 0nline!! tannak tgk k0. hahahahahah :D *yer firah aku tahu k0 bace neh and wat c0mment2 tak membina bile aku jumpe k0 :p* pdn muke! sape suruh tannak celebrate aku ngn yati!!!! nak ajak yati wat ref0rmasi kat bilik k0rg, tgk arrr :p :p :p 2nd celebrati0n : plan ngan firah *tatau lagi* :p [ermm ntah2 firah ngn cher0d dah ader plan utk kit0rg kan kan.. hehehe *wink wink* ahem... sila jgn wat2 tak nampak ayat tersebut huhu :p *d0a d0a* ;) ]---mesti k0 gelak bace nih heh :p

p/s: ph0t02 utk rujukan *perli k0rang niiii* ;p

ermmm plan jangka pendek; lunch! ssgt lapaa.. :p

I dont know exactly when in time,

Your face, your smile was fixed in my mind,

Slipping in and out unconsciously, unexpectedly,

One thing that I know is true, so true

The nicer you were, the deeper I feel for you.

You probably would be surprised, though

Because nothing I did can tell or show,

And my hostility clouded everything,

And deceived and misled you into thinking,

That I never cared, never appreciated.

I like you and yet, avoid you I did

I like you and yet, I could not show it

I like you and yet, acted as if I was unaffected

I like you and yet, I behaved as if you never existed

I like you and yet, I made out as if you did not matter

I like you and yet, I did not treat you better.

I was waiting for your confession,

You were waiting for my concession,

And we waited and waited in vain,

All because of my pride, my foolishness and my disdain.

I wish that I could tell you,

How sorry I am, through and through

If I have not been such a fool, acted so cool

Things would have turned out differently,

Even if things did not turn out as expected,

At least we have actually attempted.

But now, I am here and you are there

Never knowing that I actually cared,

That I finally realized but realized too late,

What my friend said what she said

When you fail to appreciate someone and they go away,

chances are you will not get them back!!!