Friday, February 03, 2006

thanx t0 adeeb, this s0ng (1) has been stuck in my head lately. and thanx t0 adek2 kesygn-ku ;p i've been humming this s0ng (2) n0n-st0p since these last few days.

(1) TEMAN TAPI MESRA- RATU (way c00l!:p)
(2) SEMUA TENTANG KITA- PETER PAN :)

Teman Tp Mesra- best! hihi. 1st time dgr cam biase jer. 2nd time dgr, i fell alm0st instantly in 'like' with the s0ng. luckily, my little br0s like the s0ng t00, which is a HUGE relief t0 me. haha. we were lepak-ing in my r00m when the s0ng p0pped up, and they said "haa lagu ni c00l gak.." and turned up the v0lume. pheww... lega ;) and n0w i even have the mp3 in my hp (they transfered it with0ut my asking, tq ler yek:p) i just remembered, they liked Cinta B0neka t00. huhu. aii same citarase erk k0rg ni :p huhu. saye terpengaruh! it may seem weird, but it actually matters quite a l0t t0 me whether my little br0s like the s0ngs i like 0r n0t. well. it's n0thing, really. it's n0t like i had t0 have their appr0val bef0re liking a s0ng. it's a matter 0f umm.. h0w d0 i put this.. pride? s0unds ab0ut right. eheh. nah, n0t exactly pride. the m0st l0gical explanati0n is.. umm.. well. haha. i w0n't b0ther explaining. it's simply because i d0nt want them t0 tease me!!! :p hihi. like that time when i had CERITA ASMARA (thanx t0 adeeb juge!!:p) in my playlist, they had quite a time making fun 0f me. cess! bengang betul. i remember saying this ab0ut a zilli0n times t0 them "weyy member 0rg kasik ar, 'bkn dgr pun'!" defensively, plus dismissively. huhu. and they gave me that 'yeah-right!' l00k. tensen! 'BKN DENGAR PUN...' he he he *grins* if 0nly they knew i remembered the lyrics by heart! (then, 0kay, T H E N!! plus i kind 0f 'had' t0). hahaha. i guess it d0esnt really fit their mental images 0f me. huhu. that's it.

aku punya teman
teman sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku
dia amat manis juga baik hati
dia selalu ada waktu untuk membantuku
namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

reff: cukuplah saja berteman denganku
janganlah kau meminta lebih
ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra
aku memang suka pada dirimu
namun aku ada yg punya
lebih baik kita berteman
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra

Semua Tentang Kita- i l0ve the music :) check 0ut the vide0 clip! hehe. *aiyark sejak bile aku ske lagu2 sl0w ni.. this d0esnt fit MY mental image 0f me huhu* 0h yek, the music resembles this 0ther s0ng in Mete0r Garden, but just a tiny bit.

waktu terasa semakin berlalu
tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati
ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
dan kita bersama saat dulukala
ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa
teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
ceritakan semua tentang kita
ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
dan kita bersama saat dulukala
ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

0h yeah, lame x dgr my fav s0ng 3 yrs lps; Penny Dai's "ni ya0 de ai". ske giler! :) and kalau ske lagu ni tp x ske lagu "qing fei de yi"- harlem yu mcm pelik ar kan. heh. klaka, i've liked these s0ngs l0ng bef0re they made the malay versi0n 0f 'qing fei de yi' (yes, saiful 0r s0mething). and sampai skang i d0nt kn0w the lyrics in malay, s0 kalau dgr yg saiful nyanyi tu i'd sing al0ng tp in mandarin. huhu. plus lagi best pun, 0ri nyer :p

i talked t0 yatie this aftern00n. she went sh0pping (yet again??!!) and b0ught an0ther pair 0f high-heels!! can y0u believe that girl?!! and c0uldnt wait t0 sh0w it 0ff t0 me. heh. and when i teased her, she said the 0nes she b0ught 0n the 12-hr sh0pping trip (which nearly paralyzed the l0wer half 0f my b0dy :p) were f0r her 'HARI BER-TUNANG'(!!) why, i certainly can't wait t0 see u get engaged yatie!:p *y0u c0uld've invented a m0re believable excuse, n0t that i cared :p*

talked t0 my 0ld friends; 0ja, Iman, Leen. Tried t0 call amy but she was 0ut. leen c0uldnt rec0gnize my v0ice, said my v0ice s0unded very different; macam budak2(??!!) huhu. h0w very pleasant :p

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

denn called but i 'didnt hear' the ph0ne ring. hihi. i was reading 'needful things' when adeeb called. hihihi. klaka ler. the first thing he asked... ;D i th0ught it was strange. thing is, i'd t0tally f0rg0tten the last time we talked 2 days ag0 i... well.. erm.. kind 0f.. umm.. missed.. erm.. let's say i was supp0sed t0 d0 s0mething but, umm.. haha. better late than never huh? ;p i tried t0 call denn twice but c0uldnt get thr0ugh. finally she called me. and we talked abt, umm.. things.(when was the last time we talked abt these things? um.. last yr?) it was g00d. she's 0ne 0f th0se wh0 have been *and never st0pped* trying t0 change my opini0n 0n the wh0le L thing. hehe. and i'm being ever s0 stubb0rn *i kn0w denn, i'm s0rry* but she d0esn't give up.
we argued 0ver the same things; 'l0ve, hurt, independent, SELF-DENIAL(?!) etc' and denn, y0u sh0uld listen t0 y0urself, y0u s0unded like a debater in piala perdana menteri time sk0la2 dulu hakhak :D kelaka. but she was silenced f0r a bit when i struck her with "i learned** it the hard way; the hardest way, denn. 0ther ppl can say anything but they d0nt feel what i feel, they d0nt g0 thr0ugh what i did. ever since 'then' i'd st0pped believing in it.. y0u kn0w" and when she started talking again, she c0nceded. she said i was right. i kn0w y0u understand it; y0u, 0f m0st ppl, sh0uld d0. that's why y0u agreed. because y0u kn0w. thanx! i kn0w y0u (and 0ther ppl) mean well, i appreciate it, but i'm still in grief. i'm n0t dwelling 0n the past; it's t0tally different. i've m0ved 0n, i've g0tten 0ver it, but i've als0 changed because 0f it. pe0ple d0; when a tragedy happens. they can't help it. they say time heals. i d0nt believe in that, t00.
** learn wut? heh. THE EN0RM0US C0ST 0F L0VING :p

heh. cut it 0ut! all these stupid t0uchy-feely things. yuckssss :p

umm.. adeeb called, and denn did t00. where's muttpea? muttpea! muttpea! y0u're still alive, aren't u? :p i haven't heard fr0m him in ages. tried t0 call and sms him last week and weirdly en0ugh, all my smses weren't delivered. kata ar k0 tuka n0 tak beritahu aku! mmg nak kena smackd0wn! :p nway muttpea, y0u're n0t that imp0rtant in my life. i just menti0ned y0u here 0ut 0f ... umm.. 0ut 0f.. *quick quick, a w0rd pls* b0red0m. yes. that must be it :p *but i still w0n't let y0u dr0wn larr if 0ur sampan is g0ing t0 sink and i can 0nly ch00se 0ne pers0n t0 be in the safe b0at with me; that is, if and 0nly if (aww.. statistics?! i hate stat!) the 0ther pers0n wasn't KEANU REEVES la kan hakhak peace!!\(^_^)/*

call me laaaaaaaaa!!! :p :p :p

wait a sec.. gawd.. IF i really were t0 c0me acr0ss such a situati0n kan, pls ar pls pls pls :( let the safe b0at be a wee bit bigger s0 that i c0uld ch00se 2 pe0ple, pls.. that'd be g00d en0ugh. i mean, n0.. 3! umm.. 0kay2. h0nestly. it's a t0ugh decisi0n, isn't it? i mean.. let's be seri0us. t0 ch00se the pers0n t0 be in the b0at with u, it's like t0 decide wh0se life y0u're g0ing t0 terminate, wh0a.. a matter 0f life and death. g0d, pls send me a MUCH bigger b0at; a yacht, if p0ssible, and let me ch00se at least 18 ppl! hihi. i d0nt want any0ne t0 h0ld grudge against me, i w0uldnt be able t0 live peacefully nanti.. huhu. i'm making perfect sense here kan kan? ;p

Sunday, January 29, 2006

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness
in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you...