0f all pe0ple, I hadn't expected her t0 be the first t0 call 0n my 20th birthday nite, I hadn't really! Thanks a l0t!:) h0nestly, I was kinda scared when she rang; it was the way she talked. Anyway, we had a very civilized conversati0n *just as well I was turning 20, I felt slightly m0re 0f a mature pers0n afterwards, haha ;) * Kinda nice, I sh0uld say. Well... we haven't talked f0r ages, and it was really, really nice- j0king and catching up 0n stuff. Quite h0nestly, I hadn't expected we'd talk t0 each 0ther, ever again. It used t0 be a scary th0ught- she being 0ne 0f the m0st preci0us friends 0f my life and all. I've t0 say, I've really missed 0ur friendship m0re than I th0ught I have. H0w did we bec0me strangers all 0f a sudden? It's sad, really. Well... I just want her t0 kn0w, she'd 0nce been my preci0us friend, she is n0w, and she always will be. I 0we y0u l0ts, friend. Can't wait t0 see her, my m0st-missed friend, ILYA :) thanks f0r making that m0ve, and remind me h0w nice it is t0 call y0u MY FRIEND :)

Thank y0u all..!:)

= Ilya, Ilhamfaez, Adeeb, Mai, Firah, Ahadi Is, Aliaa, Cher0d, S0’bah, Aya, Hadzwan, Della, Shai0, Dennis, Miera, Deqna, ... (these ppl are the earliest t0 wish me *and remind me 0f this half-happy, half-sad day, huhu*) and every0ne else yg wished me. Thanx..!

Half-happy, half-sad... it's my birthday, and it means I'm an0ther year 0lder, and yg lg sedey dah takdek 'teen' dah kat blakang :( zmn seventeen, nineteen dah abis. Urgh..! lagi sad, I've g0t chickenp0x! :'( ni lg tensi0n, dah ar nak raye, I can't eat s0 many things.. hampeh! My m0ther b0ught a birthday cake, but my fam just sang happy birthday s0ng and let me cut the cake, but then they ate it, and I wasn't all0wed t0 eat MY 0WN BIRTHDAY CAKE..! That's quite the cruelest thing in the w0rld 0kay!! S0 I let them take 0ne slice each and I put the rest 0f the cake in the fridge, muakakaka~ pdn muke! I'm gonna keep the cake until next week, 0r the week after that, 0r cut it sh0rt, n0 0ne is all0wed t0 t0uch the cake until I'm healthy en0ugh and able t0 eat my 0wn birthday cake with0ut getting gatal2 0r rash 0r ape yg patut. Kalau cake tu sp0ilt pun, takper ar. Tp mmg takdek sape bley mkn, huh..!!:P

i will survive~

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
I kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you've done me wrong
And I grew strong, I learned how to get along

And so you're back from outer space,
I just walked in to find you here with that, that look upon your face
I should have changed my fucking lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go, walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh not I, I will survive
Yeah, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give,
I will survive

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart,
I'm tryin' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feelin' sorry for myself,
I used to cry,
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you.
And so you thought you’d just drop by and you expect me to be free,
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me,

I WILL SURVIVE!!!!